Well, its been two months since you're gone.

Not that I'm not over the fact that i cant have you back.

But i realized that your death brings a meaning to all of us.

If not for you cheerfulness when you were alive, our laughs would exist.

And our memories wouldn't exist too.

I could still remember the tears that roll down my cheeks.

But that shouldnt be the way.

I should be remembering the laughs we had and the happy moments.

And from now on, i will .

I promise to be the best i can.

With Love,

Hidayah .

I miss you, ayah cam .

Dear Diary ,

Its been a while since i posted .

A million and one things had just hit me and i can't seem to avoid it .

I realize that i am missing a thousand people .

Where have you people gone to ?

Kak Chubs !

I hope your read this .

Rindu banget deyh sama kamu .

:D

Text me ! I seem to text you, but tak reply .

Apa sudah jadi oh ?

I've got a million and one things to tell you .

But cant seem to get to you .

Do you know that you're the only one that understand me ? ( besides the 4 other lovable girls Cinot, Loopy, Sasa and Aini )

Hehe . Eyh, dont kembang .

I miss hanging out with you .

:D

Cepat text me .

:D

Okay, one last thing.

Who is willing to teach me how to play the drums ?

:D

xoxo.

Sleepover after usrah was A-W-E-S-O-M-E .

It was on friday .

One thing i cant forget was going Marina Barrage at 2 am !

HAHA .

Very the sunyi .

Okay, i think i should go .

I dont have much to say though .

toodles .

xoxo

Cry me out

Heyyy !

Its been long since i post .

2010 has been indeed awesome ever since it started .

I saw the seniors received the o level results .

Saw how my friends struggled through life .

And saw them grab opportunities .

I saw them cried their heart out .

And that only the first two weeks of january 2010 .

The 3 day motivational talk by AKLTG was oh well, AWESOME .

Although theres tears, there was also loads of smiles and laughter .

One thing i really learned is that the "Past does not equals to the future. What you do now determines the future. "

The workshop really taught me things i can really apply in daily life.

Like the YAQIN yesterday ...

Inspired kan korang ? Hehe .

And 1 important thing i could never forget .

I actually went up stage and said 'I love you' to my mum, in front of everyone for the first time in 15 years .

My exact words were " Ma, I never said this to you before, but in front of everyone here, I wanna say that I love you . "

I was actually very proud of myself to overcome my biggest fear and not only did a script but i actually said something out of my heart .

And for the first time, i actually hugged her and kissed her .

It was like as if someone that has been deep inside me just shined throughout that day .

And the funny thing is that, my lil bro just suddenly came to me and gave me a packet of chocolates to me . How sweet .

Eyh, Im tired of typing already .

toodles .

xoxo .

2010 will be awesome .

Its 2010 already .

Look at how fast time flies .

But despite all the hard times we went through, it has actually made us a better person .

So, now 2010 will be, without doubt, another year of smiles, laughter, tears and anger .

It will be another year which will make us a stronger and matured person .

2009 has taught me that what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger .

And 2009 happened that way because God wants you to be a better person and to learn from your mistakes .

I hope 2010 will be a year that i will cherished like how I cherished 2009 .

Lastly, I thank all for making 2009 another memorable year .

xoxo ,

Hid .