Oh my godd. Blog has been dead for i dont know how long. LOLS.

I GUESS IM OFF TO TUMBLR.

BYE BLOGGER.>

FIND ME AT FACEBOOK TWITTER IF YA MISS ME.

http://www.facebook.com/hiddy.rosni

OR

http://twitter.com/#!/Hiddyxoxo

Till then.

Much loves, Hiddy.

they're gonna bring you down

When you feel that the whole world is against you, don't just sit in that corner and cry your heart out.

Instead, stand up tall and conquer everything that's in your way. Only then, you'll be the strongest.

It doesn't matter if someone knocks you down with thier words. Ignore it. Even if those words seems true to you, just ignore.

Those words are from mouths which are haters and not lovers.

Everyone has thier enemy. Its just about how you oercome your enemy.

They say 'Keep your friends close but your enemies closer.'

Even if they try to be nice to you, don't fall for their tricks.

I have fallen into their deathtrap and hell, its difficult to get out.

At times, i feel inferior to them.

But then again, how powerful are they that I should be scared to?

The only person i should be scared to is God.

And also, they themselves are inferior towards themselves.

Maybe , what made them the way they are is their bad childhood or lack of love from thier families.

So, let me say this.

Go ahead and lead your own life and I lead mine.

I shall act as if you're invisible. Thank you.

All I know now is that, I have bestfriends to guide me through this world full of hypocrites.

And no doubt, I love them to bits.

Without fail, they had been there all the time.

Dozens of stories has been exchanged, be it tough heartbreaks and broken hearts or even crushes.

They had been there.

They say " Boys come and go, friends stick till the very end.'

And remember, a friend to all is a true friend to none.

xoxo.

Heyy! Sorry for not been updating for oh so loonnngg.

I really am putting cyberworld away for the moment.

All these few weeks of school and stress has been taking a toll on my health.

Really sick right now.

I reall have no updates or whatsoever right now. But im doing this for the sake keeping it alive.

Okay, this laptop is irritating me. The keyboard really hate me.

Okay, Mad tmr and im so really looking forward to it. I dont care, im stil gonna go even if im sick.

Didnt go last week. I can't believe that i managed ot go KL for two days and be back on time. Nyahaha. I shall update about the KL trip next post.

Okay, love you people.

xoxo.

Im off.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

Im finally sixteen.

After waiting for so long. HEHE.

Thanks Ain, for always rubbing into my face that im the youngest among the four of you. HAHA. NOw you cant say that im not legal anymore.

:P

Anw, started the day as the first official madrasah class for term 2.

Then off to home. My family wanted to go out and have some family time. Little did I know that my mum wanted to get a new phone. And she passed down her phone to me. Yay! No more prepaid.

Hehe. went for Yaqin later. Only to find out that the made me wait for 2 hours...

But, got a treat by Abg Rizal. Pandi je lah eyh, nak menebus kesalahan. Hmmm...

Went for dinner at

later with Rausyan, Aini and him, Danial and JW.

Bad things happen to aini. Hmm. Why is her life always so messed up ? Wallahua'lam.

But im proud of her for being strong. ♥

Reached home at almost 11. Nasib ader wings untuk fly home. *winks*

Oh yeah, Amen was the first to wish and the last was Salam. ♥

Salam msg was sweeet . :D

Okay. I shall set myself of to study.

And i think im getting sick. *coughcough*

:(

Hero

Hero -Sterling Knight
Yeah, Yeah
Im no superman
I cant take your hand
And fly you anywhere you wanna go, yeah

I cant read your mind
Like a bell boy sign
And tell you everything you wanna hear
But Ill be your hero

Cause I, I can be everything you need
If youre the one for me
Like gravity Ill be unstoppable
I, yeah I believe in destiny
I may be an ordinary guy without his soul
But if youre the one for me
Then Ill be your hero, oh
Ill be your hero, yeah
Ill be your hero

So incredible
Some kind of miracle
That when its meant to be
Ill become a hero-o
So Ill wait, wait, wait, wait for you
Yeah, Ill be your hero, yeah

Cause I, I can be everything you need
If youre the one for me
Like gravity Ill be unstoppable
I, yeah I believe in destiny
I may be an ordinary guy without his soul
But if youre the one for me
Then Ill be your hero, yeah
Yeah, Ill be your hero, yeah
Ill be your hero
Hero

♥

I dont know why but you always make me smile ! :DDDDDDD

I love you, lil bro. ♥♥♥♥

one more chance ?

Heya lovelies!



Weekend was a total boredom .

Stayed at home the whole time.

Went Sentosa with Deyi peepos on Monday .

Awesome fun. They made me feel appreciated and welcome.

Unlike hanging out with my own schoolmates.

Now, i kinda wished i had been in Deyi.

Hehee. ^^

But at times, when i reminisce those memories i had with the clan, sadness overcomes.

We used to be so close and now were like totally drifted.



Anw, being around these peeps made me realise that no matter how long you have known a person there's nothing that can stop you from being close friends. :D

Yesterday,

Went town-ing with Aini, Richo and Swee Siang.

Firstly, wanted to have lunch at an Indonesian rest. Too ex and so we headed to KFC at Far East Plaza.

Then, headed to Bras Basah Complex. SS wanted to look for a guitar bag. And i wanted to look for drumsticks. Saw a cool bright pink drumsticks for 14 bucks. Awesome or what ? ^^

Next, headed to Bugis to play some pool. First time for me, Aini and SS. But it turns out awesome! Great time playing. :D

Later, we went for a movie at 6.30 .

We watched The A-Team. Awesome combat movie. THought i would fall asleep. But i was wrong. The movie was about this group of 4 mens that was being betrayed and had to seve a jail term of 10 years. They iligally escaped to rebuild their name. They were betrayed again but now, their names are rebuild.

Ended up reaching home at 9.30. -.-

2 hous passed my curfew. But heck care! :D

Im off now. Gotta flip those textbook pages.

toodles.

xoxo.

I don't know how long can i keep this anymore.

It seems like i have been keeping everything to myself and now, i could just explode anytime cause the bottle is filled to the brim .

Its been like a million years since i've been waiting.

But you seem blind.

Maybe i don't stand out enough .

People may think that i may just be your best girl friend.

But they don't know how deeply hurt i am whenever they say that .

I never told anyone about what i feel.

Maybe, i was thinking that i could escape myself into a world of my own .

I was wrong.

I keep seeing you with diff girls. But i somehow feel that you never loved them whole-heartedly.

And when i found out you have a new girlfriend, my heart just explode into a million pieces.

And when i got to know that you liked my bestfriend, i ignored that jealousy feeling .

It always crushed me whenever i read my your text sent to my own bestfriend's with all those kisses.

It always crushed me when everytime i tried to get my own time alone with you, there's always someone stealing you away from me.

I didn't realize that by keeping all this for 10 months, it would hurt me this much.

I never told anyone , cause everyone keeps thinking that i could never fall for you.

They are wrong.

I never told them because im scared that they would think im such a loser for loving you.

I didnt care.

I ignored.

I love you.

Thats all i wanna say.

xoxo.

♥

risk or withdraw ?

Heyy,

Super f-ed up day today .

Oh wait, seems like everyday .

Went jogging in the morning after a while since my ankle recovered.

Jogged to khatib from my block, then tracked along the mrt to Yishun, and then to chong pang and back to my block.

Quite a distant. And my ankle hurts a bit. :(

Went to meet Shasha after that. She and Tadza went off for some private counselling session and i was accompanied by Achap.

Learned a lot of things from him.

And he called me a minah! Damn him. Punched him to get revenge but ended up getting myself hurt when i hit his bone. :S

Bought Ice cream from the new shop at AMKHub basement. Sedaaaaap oii~

Choc banana with M&M's . But it kinda cost a bomb. $3.70 for a single scoop? Daylight roberry siaaa.

Slacked at Tadza's porch and later sent him off for soccer training .

Me, Shaa and achap went off to meet William .

Turned out he was with 2 other friends. Not alone. Damn him.

Ate at Banquet.

Shaa and Achap went off to meet Achap's mom.

I went off with them to 155.

Waited for his friend for almost an hour.

Down to MRT, and home sweet home.

It didnt seem liked an f-ed up day but yeah, i wouldnt wanna elaborate what happened in the middle.

I dont wanna upset anyone.

Now HID, ask yourself this question?

To risk it or withdraw ?

xoxo.

Toodles.

Life really is getting on my nerves right now.

And I don't wish to talk about it.

Prelim Oral Tmr.

O Lvl FNN Prac on Friday .

BAchinzxzxz betul.

:(

Whoaaa ...

Been a long time since i've been here.

Oh well.

Lotsa things happen lately.

Prelims 1 went badly.

I dont wish to even talk about it.

But all i have to do now is really pull up my socks.

NO ITE for me, i swear!

ONS3 was a complete success beside me suffering from a sprained ankle now.

Simply said, AWESOME .

'Holidays' are here.

And yeah, it doesn't even feel like so !

I'll have to flip those pages of my boring textbook and pretend its interesting. -.-

I gotta go now.

Toodles.

xoxo.

Heya Lovelies.

Well, yes, I'm sorry for updating lesser and lesser by the moment.

I simply spend less time here. Hehe .

Yes. Prelims is like sprinting towards me. Its like 3 more steps to the finishing line.

Oh no.

I have really put in a lot of effort into this.

I don't wanna fail again.

I just cant wait to get it over and done with.

Its really one of the things i really hate.

God.

I don't wanna go through that op. Its too scary for people to cut me up.

But i cant avoid it. If i wanna carry on this lifestyle, i will have to go through it.

But i cant change anything. He's too arrogant to even care about my health.

He wants to pay for such an expensive one is it? Know what? Im just gonna go with the flow. But one thing for sure is that I HAVE TO BE STRONG. :'(

I guess im off.

Seriously tired and in need of sleep.

toodles.

xoxo

Heya lovelies !

Well, yeah, as you can see i have not been updating my blog recently.

Mostly due to stupid computer making problems, too much homework or simply pure laziness.

Hee !

Well, lotsa things has happen lately.

Some are awesomely fun and some are just pain in the ass.

Yeah, it feels as if there are like a thousand needles on a chair poking on your butt when you sit down on that particular chair.

Gosh.

But yeah, it has been awesome.

simply said.

:D

I'll update when i feel like it.

Or when someone forces me to do it.

But this blog will probably be taking a nap.

MYE is running towards me already!

NOOOOOO !

Okay, it really feels retarded.

I feel like im talking to a computer.

Oh whatever.

HAHA.

Toodles.

xoxo.

:D

be there for me.

Im sorry for thinking that you have ignored us.

Im sorry again for thinking you never bothered about us anymore.

Im sorry for thinking you never thought about us anymore.

I guess im wrong.

I know that this year has changed.

We've all become busy ourself.

We all have school to attend, family stuffs to settle and boyfriends to tackle.

But i never have forgotten you.

I kept thinking at certain moments, wondering what could you been doing right now.

I regarded you as my own sister.

To help me guide through this crazy teenage world.

Its all because i dont have an amazing mum who understands teenage world.

I dont have a dad who even bothers to talk to me nicely.

I dont have anyone else besides my friends to guide me through.

I dont have anyone else who is able to tell me their experience.

I depended on you to be the one.

Can we just start all over again?

I love you, Kak.

I need you there too.

xoxo

Heyy all .

Well, its been hell of an idiotic week.

I found my march 2010 resolution somewhere in a load of papers in my room.

And I was surprise on what i put as No. 2 & 3.

HAHA . Ask me yourself if curious. :D

Oh ya, my March holidays doesnt seem like holidays at all.

I still have classes from like 8am to 3pm on Mon to Wed .

And the Johor trip is compulsary ?!

Damn.

That leaves me with Friday. :(

Despite that, crap has been going on at school.

Yeah, apparently i hate the way you're acting.

Seriously. Like i give a damn when is your big day!

Dude, you even PRETEND to ignore my birthday last year, well, i can do the same damn thing.

Im not really making a big deal out of this but seriously, what goes around comes around.

And yeah, i don't bother giving present to you this time cause i know you wont even appreciate.

Im off now.

This girl has to sleeeeeeeeeep .

xoxo .

When the world turns upside down.

Why do i feel like destroying you right now ?

Ask yourself why !

Grrrrrrrrrrrr ...

Whatever he told me, im really hoping that its not true .

But search yourself, what had you got for doing that ?

Fun ? Laughter ? Peace ?

And whatever it is, I do not care already.

And im putting the past behind us .

Because by doing so, it will help me in becoming a better person .

I want a change.

xoxo.

Happy Birthday Ain !

You're always the one who makes me smile .

You are the one who comforts me .

And im hoping that we will be the best of friends for the longest time ever .

I dont wanna lose you okay ?

I love ya .

HAHA . Happy birthday girl .

Enjoy the cake i bought you .

May you succeed in your future endeavors .

Happy Birthday Amri !

Brother bear ku !

May your wishes come true .

And may you always be there to cheer me up .

Sayang Am . :D

xoxo .

Bad week .

Bad week.

Bad week.

Everything seems to be going wrong .

It all seems bleak .

And all thats going through my mind the whole time was "When is this gonna end?"

But the main reason was probably you.

It feels as if im hoping on thin ice.

Its never gonna happen again .

And dreams are just a play of the mind.

I cant be hoping too much.

Its making me feel worse.

Oh whatever .

(muka tak leh angs . LOL )

Btw .

Happy belated Birthday Daddy .

I love you .

xoxo.

I miss you but i don't wanna show it .

Cant you see the obvious already ?

You ?

Me ?

Its all about us .

And why cant you just jump outta your shell like i did ?

I always wait for your text . Cause it actually means that you're thinking about me .

I always love the way you call me 'Hiddy' .

Cause its your nick for me .

No one else ?

And when can i get to meet you ? :D

Say it to me, love .

♥