Hearing your voice before i sleep makes me melt

" I wish you could just read my heart.
Cause i just can't hold it any longer already."

Hello babies.

currently in high mood.
school yesterday was fun.
but tiring. im still in the mood of sleeping in till late afternoon. LOL.
but i simply can't.
mummy spoilt my plan of going out for movie with richo and asked my to watched over aiman alone.
and then i woke up to see daddy still lying on bed sleeping which means he would be at home the whole day.
great or what ?

been chatting on the phone with Salam these few days.
one word. F.U.N.
but the bad thign is sis been bugging me when im on the phone.
just wish she could just get lost for the time being.
there is so many i wish to write here.
but my hand forbids it.
LOL.
LOL.
LOL.

im done writing enough shit here already.
peace out people !

I still do keep you in my heart even after months.

Sunshine darlings.

Here's my second post for the day. Hell yeah ! LOL. okay. so, the whole day i have been watching videos on Youtube. Not porn people. LOL. I basically watch retarded people filming themselves on camera talking funny crap. well, there are actually millions of them. but my favourites are Swiftkaratechop and Shane Dawson. you have got to watch them. super funny. i laughed my ass off. okay. not really. LOL.

Im all alone at home now. Dad is off to Johor Bahru for i dont even know for what. He even blamed me for not filling up that damn white card wrongly when he is the one who doesnt even understand simple english. LOL.

okay. i feel like writing this down.

Mr S,
The first thing that came to me when you came to my mind
Is your wonderful smile
A smile that would be accompanied by that adorable laugh
And that makes me melt
To an ending that would never end.

When i think of the short time we had
And all of the happy times we shared
It amazed me to no end
And brings tears to my heart
And i know i really missed you after all these while

I look at you and i see overflowing of love, hope and joy
Together with charm, strength and dignity
With all those wonderful qualities
Its no wonder i still do love you
Which made me coming back to you

♥

Have i ever told you still I love you ?

" You make me laugh.
You make me cry.
And the only thing I like about you,
You make me love you."

I'm back from my freaking camp people. And i miss my freaking awesome people !
God, that camp was the worst camp ever. Don't make me go there again. the only thing i liked about it was the view from our tent. Yeah. and due to my tiredness today, i have skipped school. lol.

first day.
Met Fitri at bus stop and cab to school as we thought were late. reached at 6.45am which is like so freaking early. searched for Salam and wished him. i bought for him a Billabong wallet which is so freaking nice. gathered and after briefing, depart from S'pore for Bintan. Ferry ride was awesome but the only thing i hate is people vomiting like never vomit before. LOL. Good thing is i didn't throw out a single thing eve though i felt wrong in my stomach. LOL. When we have gone through Bintan's immigration, we depart for our campsite. its was actually just a big open field facing the beach. we then set off for our first activity which is Mangrove Replanting. we had to transfer seedlings from shore to the mangrove. My only pair of shoes got wet in the end. and i have to survive with that shoe for the whole camp. Fcuking shit betul. We had lunch there and the food is so suckish. I shall not describe it. we then continued with the planting. Believe me, i almost fell on my butt while passing the seedlings. After that, we head back to camp site to have our shower. I hate waiting to shower. After shower, we pitch tents. The tent we pitch was actually ruined by the wind. We then find a tent which was strong enough that didn't got destroyed. Our dinner was then is stupid. our light out were at 11 pm WIB. which is like 12am in S'pore. All four of us, Alyaa, Firah and Mars, fell asleep shortly after including me due to tiredness.

second day.

woke up at 5.15 am WIB to have early shower. Gathered for breakfast at 6.30 am WIB. Our breakfast was like shit. i only ate a little bit. we then head off to visit a local school before going for mountain trekking. the kids there are all so cute. i could stand but pinch their cheeks. hahas. they live on poverty but are happy. they are so different from Singaporeans. the population of students there were only 59. and the batch of us were 91. we could actually make a school there. the is this special kid which has an eye problem. i pitied him. he doesn't have any friend. he even got bullied. i just wished i could help him. :'( After bidding goodbye, we then set off for mountain trekking at Gunung Bintan. trust me. it is freaking steep. and i had asthma attack twice. once going up. and another one going down. i swear. reaching the summit and reaching the ground below was the best part. and i had a thorn in my flesh. its was so painful that my fourth finger on my right hand went numb till next morning. after trekking, we went back to camp site. during bus ride, everyone was worn out and fell asleep during the whole hour ride. we then were supposed to have team building games but the rain prevented us. and after the rain, we checked our tent and it was flooded. not so much but it actually wet out sleeping bags. Mars sleeping bag actually had a puddle of water there. LOL. we then took shower and head off for dinner. the dinner then was the best. we had barbecued dinner !weeeehooooo ! after dinner was campfire. FUN! after campfire, we were told that our lights out was extended by an hour.

third day.
we ha kayaking and raft building for the day. our group had to build a raft that could make us stay afloat on water for 14 of us, unfortunately, our raft failed. LOL. here comes the best part, kayaking. we actually had 20 mins in open sea. but due to the high tide, we actually had less than 15 mins. great or what ? after kayaking, we had shower back at the camp site. we actually bathed half naked in the open shower most of us only bathed in t shirts and panties. LOL. after that we had our lunch. it was the same damn lunch we had for the second day lunch. and it was not nice too. after lunch, we head off for S'pore. we reached Singapore at around 5.30 pm singapore time. believe me, everyone fell asleep that no one vomited. LOL. got through S'pore immigration and then head off for school. the class was like wild in the bus. we went shouting and hip hooray-ing in the bus. i swear the bus could just turn over, terbalik. LOL.after the whole debrief thingy, me and Fitri head off to burger king. i was actually so hungry. LOL. head off for home after dinner and i laid on bed till i fell asleep.
(:

Im just a little not over you

" Whenever flashback happened, i was wondering.
What is it that made me coming back to you ?
What is it that I cant seem to get you out ?
Its just too complicated to be answered. "

Hello Babies !
Its a freaking Sat !
and the weekend is here.
okay. currently no freaking mood in stepping out the house.
oh, and look above !
i got rid of my freaking contacts and on with the specs again.
believe it or not i had specs since kindergarten.
its actually a secret i kept since donkey years.

and so here starts my complains.
yes, the first week of school is disastrous !
i finally understood the meaning of 'difficult'.
i finally understood the reason why lots student refuse to take A maths.
yes. A maths is freaking difficult.
i have to ask mummy to get me a tuition teacher.
weeehooo !
and have i told you F&N is freaking confusing ?
i regret taking it.
i should have took Bio !
lol.

okay, so i am having my level camp at Bintan.
god, is the school budget or what ?
its like we are only going Sentosa.
whatever to the whatever gituk.

okay. i think i have write enough freaking shit here.
before i end this post,

Happy Advanced Birthday Salam !



May you have and everlasting flow of happiness and may you suceed in all your future endorsements. presents on the way Dude !

Tag replies :

Daniel;
woah ! the Obama has made a new blog ah ?
lol.

Alyaa;
lol. fat-ass ? is she that fat ? okay whatever. anyway, im not blaming anyone. part of it maybe her fault. but maybe in to blame too huh ?

Shakinah;
i am happy already people !
korang selalu mesti ader nyer.
kecoh. hahahs. crush aku ? gambar dier. shhh.

im just waiting till you noticed me.

"I never had the chance or courage to say it.
No matter what, you will stay. "

Evening babies.
been a long time since i blogged.
well, a lot of things happened.
precisely, i have been changed to a different person.
okay. not that different.
let me make my story short.

well, 2009 is already here. and that bring me closer to the major exams.
and it freaked me out. time to focus. and i just realised A Maths is actually confusing.
and F&N is freaky. 40 pages of coursework. Wahpiang eh ~ the rest of the subject is not much of a difference beside having heavy, expensive books.

and i changed my image too. yeah. new year so must have new image also. look out for the new image in the coming posts. my class this year is freaking awesome ! seriously, those fun ones are all in my class. unfortunately those in the first class is complaining of their class being too quiet. hahas. but, one flaw of my class. they can never keep quiet when needed them too. and also this year i have awesome classmates. real awesome. i never thought they could be hyper anytime of the day.

another thing. our level camp is like next week. MISS ME PEOPLE ! lol. 12 to 14 Jan. adventure camp in Bintan. yeehaa ~ syiok bodoh ! secondd year having level camp. 3 Gracious go ! actually its supposed to be 3 gracious 2. but the spirit of the sec 3 exp are too high, we combined. well, just for fun. hee.

so, before i end this, i would like to share my resolutions. [semangat sakk aku !]

Resolution For 2009

1. To change into a more respected person.

2. To be a good sister.

3. To stay focused on studies at all time [ no more slacking]

4. Make life better.

byeeeeee !

p.s. its over between me and him. back to loving my all-time crush. you know, you shut !

p.s.s. those words in large are how i felt for my crush. so shut up !

Cause I dont like living under your spotlight

"You're part of me.
But were you the best part ?"

OH-AM-GEE !
school is starting in like 3 more days !
oh, tolooonng !

okay. actually i do miss going back to school.
yes. oh, doing all those maths question.
my fav. cracking my brain on it. but i can never get good on it.
wonder why. i wish i had those big maths brain where i could get super high marks for maths.
hee. mimpi jerr besar.

yes. talking about school, i wonder why do we have to go to school this friday ? its like a waste. simply could rescheduled to monday kan ? "Govt. stupid" that is what my nenek would say.
roflol. she always have some comments that to her is not funny but to us it is.

and, seriously. i need a job. who cares what job it is. as long as they pay me. that day, i saw abg halif working at Action Toys at Millienia Walk. semangat tak boleh angks ! roflol. and oh god, i do miss my darling friends. gotta meet them soon. and mummy, shower me with money. [mcm rhyming gitu kan ?] i want raise in pocket money horr. hee.

shoutoutz.
Alyaa-
i miss you stupid. go Jakarta must buy me something nice okeh ?
hehee.

Aini-
gila, your adeq in our school ? hee. padan muka lor.
hehee.

Shasha-
bila mau keluar lagy ? miss you truckloads.

k bye (: (:

Boo !
im back yo !
okay. seriously high at the moment.
woke up at 10.30 in th morning.
siang sialll. -.-
get out of bed and started shouting "[insert name here], You're fireeeeddd ! "
i have no idea why i said that.
LOL.
ate nasi lemak. mummy cook not so nice ah today.
hehee.
few more days till school reopen.
tak boleh tunggu ah siakk.
eh, aku tak tahu nak bebual aper heh.
roflol.
k bye (:

Evening Babies,
I had a great holiday.
really.
mummy treat us to a movie yesterday.
Bedtime Stories.
awesome movie.
i rate it 4/5.
and have i told you twilight rocks ?
its worth the wait since i got to know about the movie in July.
hehee.
and i had a haircut too.
yeah.
didnt had much the difference though.
but it looks thinner.
yeah.

and today, we went to buy my schoolbooks.
bought new uniform too.
and the sizes are extremely big.
its so difficult to get the right size that fits perfectly in me.
to hell the principal.
LOL.
accidentally bumped into aini at sch and catch up with all those gossips.
went to the newly opened Sembawang Shoppung Centre.
nothing nice there.
yeah.

im outta here yosxsxs.

i was born to tell you i love you

Yo !
okay. i am seriously exhausted.

had drama from 9 to 11 am.
planned to have breakfast with fitri at 8.
woke u at 7.
cabbed to northpoint.
during drama, we were building up a script for sec one orientation.
yeah and out of our own creativity,

we created a story of a woman whose wedding was called off by her fiance without a reason.
she then became sort of like crazy and the committed suicide.
she then vows to get revenge when she found out her ex-fiance called off the wedding as he was seeing another woman.
and the ending is mysterious as it could attract those new sec ones.

and as usual, i was picked to be the stage manager.
personally, i think there would be no one who would take that place except me.
lol . -.-

yes. and we also had disscuss about our drama discipline.
attendance is soooooo bad
and i really want drama to be strong.
so to those drama members, better turned up cause there might be free cookies if you do.
okay. till here.
will be collecting my passport tmr.
weeeehooooo ~~
hahaas
hyper liao.

tag replies :
fitri : thanks for telling syg. hehee.

shrooms : Syahrum ! that ehem ! roflol !ts been a gazillion years since you came here. hahas. visit more often hor.

alyaa : cool kan the website ? i go there everyday. is 'desendnate' something like shane too ?

zoul : want me to do for you ? tgklah keadaan. hahahs.

stay close, dont go.

Yo !

currently at cousin's new hse.
N-E-W !
her hse is niceeee.
yeah. been staying here since friday.
will be staying over here for abt two more days.
spend my greatweekend with her.
but there is onl one thing in ths hse that i dont really like.
C-A-T-S.
yeah. three cats n one hse.
andone of them, dexter , peed on my bed last night at 12 am.
great or whatt ?
and hell yeah, had a hard time cleaning it off.

okay. i'll be back to write more okays ?
(:(:
peace out !

Kaykay: Wht i do !? *laughs*
Paul: Look at wht u've done to barney !


Paul: Hello nemo, i found u. (hahas !)
LOL. This crack me up !

Yoxzxzxzxxz !

yeah. i finally got someone to cheer me up on my B.O.R.I.N.G. day.
start my day early.
yeah. i woke up at like 8 despite sleeping at i dont know what time.
yeah. and now, i am waiting for bestie to drop by my hse so we can go watch twilight together.
will blog later yeah ?

(: (:

try to leave the light on when i'm gone

I WANT STARBUCKS !

there is like no more starbucks cafe at Northpoint.
arrrggghhh !
would someone nice enough buy me a starbucks ?
(:

How did we get here?

Yo !

Currently in the mood for shopping.
yupp.
S.H.O.P.P.I.N.G.

hahas.
been shopping during the weekends.
with those sales going on, i shop like there is no tommorow.
ooh. and i wanna save up for a PSP.
weeeeeee ~

okay. off to another topic.
i am soooooo gonna watch twilight with bestie !
woooohoooh !
Twilight here we come !
LOL.
even though half of Singapore has already watch it,
so what ?
those who read the books already knows why im so excited.
i bet half of those who watched it already didnt even toched the book yet.
LOL.
and that is what i call lazybums.
the book is actually better then the movie.
some critics said that there are actually good chapters in the book that are not part of the script.
yeah.
so, get the book now before you even buy the ticket for thse movie dumbs !

okay.
im outta here yozxzxzxzx !

Through the monsoon

Horoscope; Cancer
A very important element is missing from your day today, and you need to make sure you that you find it before the end of the day. Have you left a fun person off the guest list? Forgotten to double check your work at school? You need to slow down and think things through in order to remind yourself what it is you have forgotten. Get a friend in on the chase with you -- ask them if they know what you're trying to remember. If they don't, they may be able to help jog your memory.

oh, where are you, friend ?

Yo !
im currently bored sitting at home.
yes. very bored.
i wish he was here.
hehee.
i am soo stressed up.
everyone is wanting me to hangout with them.
but i simply have no mood, lazy and plain broke !
yes. i wish there is something i could do without even spending a single cent.
i have been thinking of what syg said to me.
im not angry or anything at him.
i just want him to concentrate on other things baside me for the moment.
the gap between us is getting wider.
but i dont mind.
as long as i love you and you love me.
okay. enough of those lovey-dovey thingy here.
and as im typing this, i dont know why im making so much spelling mistake !
gahh !

i got so much to say.
but it wouldnt be in this post.
okay. i'll shut up.




aku rindu sama mereka ! =.=""

mana mau dapat ? hari raya haji pergi Marina Barrage !

messy hair ? nature's fault.
(:

Cute Aiman

Daddy : aiman, don't jump !
aiman : Pa, look at me jump ! Yayah ! dont take my picture !
me : Too bad ! i took it already ! *tounge out*

hahahs.
i just love this peekture.
look at how cute he is.
(: (:

i got lots to tell !

so, on monday was hari raya haji.
and yes, i did have fun.
fun with all those long lost cousin. (i guess )
oh. and how great, i went to Marina Barrage after those visiting.
hahas.
with baju kurung some more. okay. not really but somehow it looks like baju kurung.
and mummy told me some guy was actually laughing at us.
great or whuudd ?!

and yesterday, me, aiman , nana and mummy went to see granddad at hosp.
first time he was admitted, i think.
yeah.
and i was like somehow called a nurse by my uncle.
(:

okay. will write some more maybe later.
off to do chores.
(:
P.S why is today's entry full of ' (: (: ' =.=

Yo peeps !

okay im off.
LOL.

craves

okay. Short post. Im craving for some donut and frappes ! maybe donuts from Donut Factory and frappes from Macd's ? Yum !

Great weekend

Evening babies,

currently chatting with my dear godbro.
sayaaaaang my abg. -.-"
hahas.

so, on whole day, i did nothing.
okay, not really nothing.
its just that i have been lazing around.

so, i havent been posting during the weekends ?
sorry.

friday.
planned to watch her school basketball match against Bedok View sec.
met ain at yishun mrt at 11
cooooolios !
then we decided to go town.
trained to amk.
fetch shasha and then off to newton.
bumped into her team at the bustop at newton.
they were like staring and staring at us like we are aliens.
hahas.
yishun town won the championship.
congrats yaww.
after the match, we bus-ed to town.
abg halif came to like hang out with us.
everything suddenly got kecoh.
hahas.

saturday
wen out with family to that crowded Sitex at expo.
mummy brought me a new mp4.
i love you mummy !

sunday
woke up at 7.
bus-ed to masjid to pay madrasah fees with ain.
had breakfast with her.
reached home, daddy asked me to get ready.
he wanted to go to east coast for a picnic.
actually he told us the day before but it totally slipped my mind.
on the way there, it started to rain.
when we reach it began to get hot.
what a wheather.
after a few hours of cycling, it start to drizzle.
great or whuud ?
packed up and head of to cuzzie's ew house at Pasir Ris.
her house is like "WOW !"
better then mine.
hahas.
she ordered pizza for snacks.
later we head off for dinner.
sedap oii !
hahas.
after being full, we bid goodbye and went seperate ways.
oh ya, she bought me some new tops from hong kong.
nice.

overall, great weekend spend with dearest family.

syg, i rindu u ! i understand that u're busy. spend time one day okay ?

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