"Im in a dilemma. Why are people all assuming the wrong things ? I never said i believed her . I was just confused . I want to know the whole truth . From both mouth . Not only hers . I have been trying my best to get to you . But all along, you were missing . I could seem to find you even till the end of the world. I swear upon my life that i have hated you nor been angry at you . So, please . Tell me the whole truth . Don't make me drown in a pool of lies . "

Even more bored.

My Darling Maddies. <3>

Hey hey .
Currently at Ain's crib.
My laptop being's a bitch .
Oh wait. not my laptop. My internet router at home.
Nyhahahha .

Currently at Ain's crub with Masri and Ain ( like obviously ) .
Were like talking crap right now.
googaagoogaagoogaa.
hahahs.
gtg .
Bye darlings.
(:

Bored.

Hey hey .
Sorry for not updating sayangs.
Been lazy much.
LOL
Currently now at republic poly .
Having a course on Environment Technology.
Quite cool but stressful since we have to find info .
The problems given to us are seriously difficult.
LOL.
Oh my god .
I havent been doing my holiday homeworks .
hahahas .
I dont feel like doing.
Whoa .


All these time not blogging , i have been through lots .
Aini has been living her life now since that guy left her .
And Shasha has been heartbroken.
Because of some bitch with no life.
Yeah .
Stay strong my sayangs.
And seems like im the only among the fours that staying strong.

Oh, my holidays seems bad .
Will be having remiedials next week the whole week .
Baik kan ?
And holiday homeworks are piling up my desk.
OH-AM-GEE.
I seriously need a break .
I know.
It sucks right .

Oh. Better get back to work .
Hahas .
Gotta complete powerpoint slides before three .
Weehoo ~

Byeeeee.
P.S : Got my hershey special dark . Thanks to Stacy for the 15c. LOL
=]

Craving craving for some Hersheys Special Dark

Yum-Yum .

Someone ?

XP .

Been bloghopping and fell in love with this vid on Shasha Loopy's blog.




Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww .
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww .
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww .
Sweet ending .
<3

Out of the bottom .

I just dont understand you, my love.

You are just making me all wired up.

Those sweet words are just words of convincing.

It will never be long till you break your promise.

I know deep inside you love me but you just dont know how to show it.

I miss those pretty smiles.

I miss those moments where we would just stare into each others eyes.

I miss those crazy laughter we had.

I miss those beautiful kisses.

Lastly, i just miss the old you.

<3>

Sayang you lah , my bachin .

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER .

Ohh i am so happy .
Oh wait .
Only 70% stress-free .
Another 30% will be Results .
My worst fear .

Gosh .
Already got my e maths , geog, chem , eng and malay .
I could say i was only happy with my malay .
Gyeah .

Gahh ~
I miss my hot rugger lah sial .
LOL .
Padahal semalam baru jumpe .
weeeeehhooooo ~

Okay.
I think im gonna go .
Fcuking boring lah .
(: (:

You make me confused , boy .

You dont understand , boy .

There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

Weeehooo ~
Add maths paper is so over .
Glad so . But i seriously know i am so gonna F-A-I-L .
Great aye ?
Okay . One more freaking 2h paper and im free .
Food nutrition .
Gotta just brush up and poof i am so ready .

Currently just lazing around on my darn pink bed with my pink lappy .
LOLS . So the pink .

So my saturday was spend with family .
Went to celebrate Tiana and Aiman's birthday which so happend to fall on the last two Thurs .
hahass.
Aiman on the 7th and Tiana on the 14th .
I know . one week apart eyh ?

And my Sunday was well spent at
masjid .
LOL .
Baik ke pe ? Budak alim horh . Pakai tudung satu hari . Abeh Hid bangga eh nie ?
LOL .

Had madrasah early in the morning .
I was lucky mummy that became my alarm or not i'll be sleeping all the way till afternoon .
LOL.
And as usual the four of us will be late .
We were like 15 mins late .
XP
We always come i fours .
After that had tuition .
Me and chinoneh came obviously late .
We came like 1 and a half hour late .
Baik ke pe ?
We then 'lepak-ed' at the 'Yaqin's Suite ' as quoated from Deen, my so-called tutor .
He said that because they had a room with
1) a so-called kitchen with nothing
2) a working table ( which is still working well but the chairs -.-"" )
3) a wooden couch with no cushions
4) the toilet is soo near them . Female toilet .

Great aye ?

Oh.
While i was semangat-semangat studying add maths , Ain and Deen was shooting balls to i don't know where but i know balls were all over the place at that time.
And the balls , kept hitting me , thanks to Deen .
An because he was bored , he went on a search spree and found this toy which to me seems like golf .
LOL .


whoa .
Ain was told to delete this photo but as you have known Ain ...
LOLS .
Head home after tuition and again , continued my studying spree .
And thanks to Deen's notes, i think i have studied quite enough to answer those frigging questions .
LOL .



HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALY !!
Wish you all the best .
I'll be here for you okay ?
May you succeed in your future endorsements .
May your life be filled with lots of love, happiness and tons of crappiness .
Hid <3

Im done now .

Additional maths.

Argghhh !

Add math's the death of me !

I so need help .

Tyvm !

Grrrr ~

Im not typing sense . <3 malas

Go figure it out .

Okay. I dont know what to write here right now .
A maths on monday.
Amd FnN on tuesday .
Had Chem just now .
Not that bad .
Ended freaking early .
Around 9.15 .
Great eyh ?

Yeah .
then aini came over and we went gila .
aini, a.k.a. stacy ( i don't even know how she came up with that name ), is in love love love .
LOL .
And we went gila while WE were msg-ing someone random gila babx nyer !
LOL .
Tak nak taruk name eh .
Nanti habis kene maki .
LOL .

And yes, my legs are killing me .
Had a freaking long nightwalk with him.
I think we just conquered the whole yishun .
Wtf . -.-

And oh yeah . I feel like fcuk .
Missing the old him .
Wth .
What telah happen eyh ?

Gosh . I so need a break .

And why am i typing like a minah .
Oh whatever .
To hell with it.
I am so not a minah .
Tyvm !

I am so going now .
Bye .

Yes. I snipped off my hair .
Okay, so whatever !
LOL .


Whoa .
Im so gonna flunk physics and geog and e maths.
Yes.
And i am so gonna do my best for Chem even though its a one hour paper tmr .
Great .

Okay, i just hope i dont faint again nowadays .
Especially if i get too stress .
LOL .
I just did faint yesterday .
Freaky .

Okay, I so need my sleep .
Eyebags my best friend now .
Nites people !
:D

Hey hey.

Currently at Asyiqin's crib .
Hehe . Yes, i know that my E-maths paper is tomorrow but i have no mood to study right now .
I promise to study tonight ?
So, my weekend has been a buzz .
Even though its three days .
Didnt get to spend my time with him . :(
Saturday was spent babysitting my bro .
My lucky sister didn't have to attend madrasah . Basket .
Later in the day was spent at Sembawang SC .
Aiman spent the whole time at the Splash park .
And i ended up half wet while changing him . -.-
I asked mummy for Subway cookies yang terlalu sedap itu .

Mama : No no no . Tak halal . Cannot .
Hid : Dgr-dgr diorang bake cookies together-gether nan pork kan . ( giving mama that sad face then walks off to buy bubble tea )

LOL .

Sunday was spent at masjid the whole day .
Good girl eh.
Ain was damn gila .
And me , obviously go gila too .
And Sasa too !
(:
During the tuition , was more gila with Deen around .
Kene kacau rabaks bin tembak siot .
LOL .

Monday was then spent slacking around .
I only studied maths the whole weekend .
LOL. obviously it made me go gila .
That was why i don't feel like studying today .
*smiles widely*

Know what ? I got nothing to say .
Bored to hell right now.
Will be heading to woodland library later.
Toodles !
(:

Woooh !
I just dont think i can fit in anymore formulas or notes.
My brain feels like its gonna explode any minute.
Gosh.
Tomorrow will be the first paper; my most hatred subject
MALAY.
LOL.
Used to be my fav.
But since i got more boring this year, im beginning to hate it.
"GREAT !"

Okay.
so, here it goes...

Good Luck to all my lovelies tomorrow yeah ?
Pass with FLYING COLOURS.
Lets all not fail this time.
I have seen enough red marks already.
And do your best for A MATHS.
LOL.
The only subject you can afford to fail.
LOL.
Hehee.

Okay.
Im done rambling.
Nites darlings.

Byeeee.

Slam <3

Hey babies.
Its been a while since i last blogged.
Been well occupied these past few days.
And my lappy has been a bitch.
And today, i am happy enough that its not making any problems. :)

The whole week has been occupied by preparing for the Ideas in Action thingy.
Been coming home at 9.
Bea-youuu-tii-foool.
Lucky enough that my parents understands.
Once in a while.
And the Judging Day was on Thurs.
It was awesome.
But hell, i wouldnt want to go through it again.
The judge was irritating.
I dont want to elaborate though.
And there is this group from our school doing almost the same thing.
Hehee.
Great minds think alike ?
LOL.


Back track to yesterday.
Obviously i needed the break though.
The whole week was tiring me out.
I was just planning to rot at home.
But Mummy dragged me out of the house to watch a movie with my darling sister and brother.
Settled down on watching 17 Again.


It was freaking AWESOME !
Funny.
I wanna watch it again.
The funny part was that whenever there is a kissing scene, aiman would cover his eyes with a pout.
Cute much.
LOL.
After that dropped by New York Pizza.
Not bad. But the food quantity was bad.
Try it for yourself.
I still prefer the old concept.
Its more relaxed.
Head home after that and continue my rotting at home.
Not a bad day actually.
I had time to release stress.

And exams are around the corner though.
I still dont know where to start.
And i guess i wont be blogging much.
Sorry.

Till then.
Byeeee.

Oh god, I miss him.
Oh and yes, I am force to never took off that necklace.
But hell, i have been scratching the back of me neck ever since i wore it.
So obviously it is not stainless steel.
And yes, i am freaking allergic to those cheap metals.
Sorry syg.
But thanks to my cleverness, i trade the lace to my old necklace's lace which is stainless steal and exchange the locket.
Hee.
Love ya truckloads.
(:

Happy 2nd Monthsarry bby !
Thank you for the necklace !
I love you so.

Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
When I see your smile
Tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out

How this world turns cold
And breaks through my soul
And I know, I'll find deep inside me
I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

It's okay, it's okay, it's okay

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you, I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

'Cause you're my, you're my, my
My true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away

'Cause I'm here for you
Please don't walk away
And please tell me, you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know, I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever

P.S Any birthdays ? I wanna wish people !
LOL.

Im feeling like C R A P right now.
Go figure out yourself.
Yes.
Too much things happened today.
W A Y too much for me to handle in a day.

Had maths test for the first period.
How great ?
And it was a freaking 1 hour paper.
And i guess i was too slow in doing my work taht i didnt complete 2 questions and damn 2 BONUS question.
Okay, who cares about the bonus question but that 2 damn questions !
URGH.
After that we got back our Geog test we did last week.
Damn, i failed by 1 freaking mark.
God dammit ! I cant seem to pass my Geog.
I suck at it big time.
Then we had MT and i was thankful enough from all those shit as Cikgu wasn't in class and we had time to at least relax.
Harris and Wera are such jokers.
LOL.
My reccess was crap.
I dont want to talk about it.
After recess was Chem and I swear I could burst my head of with all those chemical formulas.
And then it was English.
I dont feel like explaining what happened during Chem and Eng class but I swear that I know our form teacher will be freaking amd at us again.
The last time she was mad at us, she threw everything on the teacher's table onto the floor.
And she is like those type of sweet caring teacher i knew.
Phew. No way im going through that again.
And at this point of time, I received a msg from Daniel that we got a freaking BRONZE for our SYF .
I know. I was the one who screwed up the whole fcuking awesome play.
Making it RETARDED in the eyes of professionals.
I am so never gonna touch that devil-ed lightboard again.
And during Chem, I actually was in a so-called fight with Bby.
Great right ?
Had physics test in the last period.
I did attempt a few questions.
But i know im so gonna flunk this test.
Almost everyone was like ignoring the test and pleading the teacher to postpone the test again.
LOL.
Had a maths remedial then.
Not really remedial but we are supposed to finish up all those overdued homework we owe her.
And i was like the last one to leave. In a good way though.
I know i could never complete my work if i had gone home to do it.
The rest went home after completing one or two work.
Good girl i could say.
*smiles widely*
Head home and i slacked.
Yeah.

I wish i could turm back time to rewind all those that happened.
I cant seem to get it into my freaking thick skull that we got a Bronze.
I guess i should ust go into a corner and stay there forever.
I could never face them again.
Its all my fault !

I dont feellike writing anymore.
Tears are already flowing down.
I guess im too stressed up.

Bye people.
Hate me all you want.

Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love.

If you were to be in my position.
Empathetic.
Is this how you live your life ?
Hurting people you love ?
I thought it was worth it giving you another chance.
I love you too much to say.
All my emotions go out of control.
Please.
I dont want to be the one crying in the corner losing you.
I dont want to be the one suffering the heart ache.
Those nine moths of torture was enough to make me go crazy.

I put my heart into this.
I put my soul into this.
There is nothing in this world i would ever ever trade for this.
You and me.

♥

Just what is wrong with you ?

God, please, show me the signs.
Im tired of this game.
Its too hrtful for me to handle.
I love him too much.
God, please, you are the only one who understands.
No one else do besides you.
I need him like a drug.

No one else ever understands,
NO ONE.
Not even my besties.
Only. me.

"Fcuk bitch.
Get a life.
Im gonna make you suffer.
Im not gonna be the one hurt.
To hell with you.
URGH."

byeeeeeeeee.

Hey ho and away we go.
LOLS,
Random much.
Oh, btw, HELLO EARTHLINGS.
Oh that reminds me of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.
I remember that in Sec 1 literature, wehad to do research on it and stuffs.
Yeah.

Back track to stories.

Friday.
Daniel gave me a letter on Thursday.
And i freakingly cried in the Study room.
Okay it was more to laughing than crying.
And its what i call both luagh and cry.
Weirdness.
Had nothing planned for Friday except Kenduri at Granddad’s place.
And as per normal, when it comes to kenduri, Daddy’s timing is always wrong.
We ended up reaching when everyone is like going off home already.
Daddy can never make it as a time planner.
LOLS.
Then we head off to Expo for I don’t know what.
And there was like a Book Fair going on and so as normal I dragged them and pester thme to get me a books.
Got a book titled ‘The Boy I once Loved “ for a freaking 5 Bucks !
Went to eat at Simpang Bedok Food centre there.
Ate Kampong Fried Rice.
And then head off home.
Kinda boring but I spend my day texting Jali all the way cause apparently Bby didn’t reply my msges.
):


Saturday.
Had Maulidur Rasul at Tampines Stadium.
Apparently, I was the earliest one of all.
We planned to meet at 1.30pm at out usual meeting place.
I thought I was late as I reached at 2.
But in the end I was the earliest.
When I reach the meeting place, may darling mates was only on their way out of their house.
Baik kan ?
Aku sayang korang. (:
Yadda yadda yadda.
We chatted and camwhored while waiting for the bus which ended up half and hour late.
Rabbani, Sharifah Aini and Elfie Ismail was there to perform and I saw Wanie there.



Amri and Hafizah's solo photo weren't be able to be taken as they were missing at that point of time. And Bapuchi( Sasa ) was all gila.

And after everything ends, we became more Gila.

And Bapuchi went Gila again but now, together with Loopy.


Bby send me home.
Seems like i was in cloud nine !
Gyeah !
I shall not elaborate.
My monents. Not yours.
Hee.

Sunday.

Had madrasah early in the morning.
And as per usual we were late.
We scribbled on small piece of paper.
Gosh. I go gila with them man.


Gyeah !
And then we head of for free tuition at two till lilke four.
And apparently. Sasa and me were late.
(:
After tuition, we haed of to Shasha's crib for i dont know what reason.
But we had fun btw.
Camwhored like Gila again.
*Shasha, Ain, Dewi and Rahmat ! My lovely homies.




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Ended my day by sleeping all the way till morning.
Well not really. Woke up in the middle of the night to find food and i got othing in the end.
Besides Chocolate milk.
LOLS.

Today
Had boring lessons and chem test.
It ws freaking easy.
LOLS.
Hope to pass.
And had e-maths remedial.
Boring.
Headed home and i slept all the way till like maghrib in uniform.
Wtf.
Too tired i guess.
Tak sempat nak change pulak tu.
And here i am typng this.

Okay. If i write any longer i bet you wont read more.
And so, i shall not continue.
LOLS.
Okay. byee.

*P.S. i took nearly an hour to write this whole thing.
Great !