All I could say is that I have loved you all my heart.

Tiring day today.
Had boring lessons.
All i did was sit and listen.
Good girl.
LOL.
The whole day was like in a bad mood.
Aini keep asking why im like so quiet.
And all i said was 'no mood'.
And she wil ask whether its because of him.
And i told her partly it is.
I have no intention to be too worried but it just took over me in an instant.
How i just wished we could talk our hearts out.

Back track to the story.
Went to Eunos to order our drama tee.
Its nice.
Seriously.
And now we have to pay 8 bucks more.
Great.

Okay.
Im seriously in no mood to write more.

Bby, make me happy once again.
At least text me.
I miss the old you.

I feel so empty, hurt, lost, and all those ba feeling you would never want.
I have no idea why im feeling this way.

Most of all im feeling so empty without baby's cheerfulness.
I hated it when he starts going all moody and it makes me feel so guilty.
Its as if i am in the wrong.
But I will never know whose wrong is it.
I hated it when we never talk about our problems ever.
It makes me feel so awkward yet i want to know.
I just dont know how to mae him know how i feel deep inside.
But all I want him to know above all things is that I love him more than anything.

Yes. And all I could do know is leave him with his alone time.
Hoping as not to let history repeat itself.
And all I want is for us to last long than ever.

" I wish to put all things to rest.
And just lead my own life.
Cause people are just mean.
Hurting others like nobody's bussiness.
Karma ! "

Why is people so mean ?
I feel as though im not needed.
As though Im just that girl who will be there whenever you have no others to talk to.
Get a life.
You are hurting people.

Back to the stories.
Had drama training today.
Firstly met Daniel, Lorenzo and Firah at macs for breakfast.
Head down to school after that and were like so hyped up.
LOL.
During debrief, G was like telling me and the lightsman that there will be changes.
Then he suddenly poked me on what happen at the training at CJC.
OH-AM-GEE ~!
"Don't worry. Its not gonna be so much. I know." He was at first talking about the lights.
Then he suddenly changed his tone to sarcastic-ness.
"I heard someone got to stressed-up and cried on th bus "
And everyone was staring at me.
And all i said was "Fine. "
He was like keep repeating it.
-.-"""" -.-"""'
Great G.

So after drama, went to have lunch at KFC.
Then me, Daniel and Firah went to disscuss about our drama shirt.
And great, Im broke.
Perfectly rounded broke.
Baguuuuuus !
LOL.

Shall save on from now.
I hate being broke.
And mummy still dontwant top up my prepaid seyh.
Wth.

Byeeeeee.

"As life present you with challenges ,
How would you overcome it ? "

I shall contain my anger.
I do not want to have enemies.
And I shall just leave that particular person alone and let her do her stuff.
And I shall not interfere anymore with her life.
Or any other things that made her think Im that mean girl who has ruined her life.

Currently facing the freaking hot glaring sun.
Cause that is the only place I can actually get internet access in my room.
Cause obviously my wireless at home sucks.
And im not gonna complain to mummy cause she's already tired of me sayng the same old stuff for the past two months.
LOL.

My throat still hurt since yesterday.
But not as badly.
My flu is getting worser.
Why is everyone getting sick nowadays ?
Weird much ?

I had spend my day today just sacking around the house.
I have re-watch Twilight and at the same time
flipping through the pages of Twilight (the novel ) trying to notice whether the lines they say is exactly the same.
I am obviously Twilight crazy.
Even Bby said im obssesed.
LOL.
But who cares besides me ?
And i seen lots of people started reading the Twilight Saga.
Goodness sake, I have finished reading the whole four books like June last year when most people dont even know they existed.
Goodness. Can they ever wake up and go check out the bookstore or something.

I remembered one incident.
I was re-reading New Moon and Firah was reading it too.
One day, she told me those best part of the novel as she had finished it.
Then i said to her "Babe, I've read the whole of four book already. Im re-reading it. "
And then she was like blushing of embarresment.
No offence Firah !

Oh, back to my day.
And I re-watched videos by Destery, Shane Dawson and much more.
Why am i re-watching things ?
Goodness.

Tomorrow will have drama training.
From like 9 am to 3 ?
OH-AM-GEE !
I feel like dying.
Great Mr president.
I am so gona kill you tomorrow.

Byeeeeee. Im off for now !

" It all seems nice with you by my side.
And you were the one who makes me felt appreciated once again. "


My throat hurts.
Badly.
Fever since last night.
I hate it.

Ever since i got my results, I have resolve to myself to do well in the upcoming test.
Have been studying badly.
I know. I dont look like the one who would study.
Daddy warned me already.
" If you dont pass your EOY, I shall make you drop out of school. "
OMG ! I dont want drop out.
And all my dreams will be crushed !
And no way I would fail my EOY !
No way I would be repeating.
No way.
I have to improve on my humanities, FnN , Emaths and Amaths.
Yes, i failed all these freaking easy subject (beside Amaths) in term 1 ! -.-""
Probably dropping a maths.
That will depends on ny MYE results.

And yes, my weekend kinda suck.
Especially without contacting him.
XD.

Okay, enough ranting.
I shall not go on or it wil bore you to my freaking toes. -.-"
LOL.


Watch this.
I wont bore you though.





I told you.
And so, " I LOVE YOU "

"Love ? is that sone kind of cheese ? "
LOl.

Byeeee.

"I wanna be played like a sweet guitar
Played like a slow jam in the dark
I wanna be played like a violin
Make the strings talk with your finger tips. "

Friday the 13th.

Now i see why people loved avoiding this day.

My day started out badly.

i dont understand why.

But thanks to Ms Loh.

And i shall NOT elaborate.

In the end, it turned out great.

Besides my report slip.

Its the worst slip i have ever received in my life.

I failed four damn subjects.

I know.

After that went to have breakfast with Mama and Aiman.

Fetched Nana from her school.

Waited for her like as if i waited for a durian to fall from a tree.

Damn.

Then head off for a change and off to Suntec City for the freaking boring IT Show.

I wished i hadnt went.

And blah, blah, blah.

Headed home and here i am.

♥ ♥ ♥

Where were you, when everything was falling apart?

All my days were spent by the telephone that never rang.

And all I needed was a call that never came.

Lost and insecure,y ou found me.

Lying on the floor, surrounded.

Why'd you have to wait?

Where were you?

Where were you?

Just a little late, you found me, you found me.

But in the end everyone ends up alone.

Losing him, the only one who's ever known.

Who I am, who I'm not and who I wanna to be.

No way to know how long he will be next to me.

♥ ♥ ♥

If there's a door to escape misery,
I would be the first.

" With all those love from you,
I feel as if i was once appreciated."

At last, i feel appreciated.
After all these while feeling so un-worthwhile.
And after all these time living in a world of my own,
I shall now start living life with others.

Its a Monday.
One of the most hated days in the calender.
It usually start great.
But unfortunately, it started bad again today.
Everything seems to go wrong nowadays.
Even i start to ot do homewor again when i know i should be doing.
Pure laziness, i could say.

And, hell yes, the holidays are coming.
Oh wait, its not even called a holiday.
We are freakingly supposed to come back for extra lessons.
Now, i have a feeling of changing my subjects.
Im starting to hate geog.
Its so freaking difficult.
And FnN is beggining to suck.
Okay, enough.

Friends are now coming back after all these while missing.
Yeah. Treat me like a waiting lamp post.
Why do you ever just go when you like and come when you're lonely ?
I dont understand this human nature.
Its seems so stupid.
And yet, it happened.
Listen, I shall not be the one waiting in line for you.
Back off if you're not gonna stay.

Enough ranting,
I shall not say more.
Byeeeee.

P.S. I love you bby.

Oh, tolong ! Im addicted to this song.
Oh so the nice.
LOL.
(:

Halo - Beyonce

Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light

I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
Halo, halo

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Wooooosshhhh ~!

Oooohh yeah ~

Happy Belated Birthday to
Ain Chinoneh ~ &&&
Shasha Loopy !

Yes, I love these two dumbass. And I look dumb in that pic. LOL !

Not forgetting
Dewi Farhanah.
And also to Umi !

I love these people.

May you lead a long and happy life.
May you suceed in your future endorsements.
May you love those loving you.
May you love me too ! (?)

Any more birthdays ?
I've had enough wishing people...
LOL.

"I found heaven on earth;
You were my last, my first;
And then here this voice inside;
Ave maria."

Hello babies !

Oooh yeah.
Yippe, yippee yeah.
LOL.

I change my skin in approx. nearly an hour !
An achievement !
LOL.

I just feel like killing lotsa people tonight.
But thanks to Bby cheerfulness, I shall not kill anyone.
And yes, I shall not.
Not today.
Maybe tmr.
LOL.

Had a freakingly fun day today.
Meet Kak Chubs after few mths missing her like crazy.
Kak Chubs and Rahmat waited for me near mrt.
Went to the street soccer court near Deyi Sec.
Talked and talked with Kak Chubs.
Met Elmo, her boyfiee.
And yes, I could suddenly visualize all her problems the intant i met him.
Waited for Shasha, Syafreak, and all.
Then we head off to KFC.
Had a blast there.
Talked all crap.
All those craziness happened there.
Oh and we met Farhan on the way there and so we ate together.
And hell yeah, didnt know he was so-called well-known there.
LOL.
Elmo dropped by.
And soon it started raining, and so we had to stay all the way till ard nearly 7.
Took the train and it was freaking full.
Bby and Qaiyum send me home.
Bby was like so cheerful which made me from being so sad about Kak Chubs to suddenly not worrying too much about her.
And, so, im now here writing this.

I do not have any more say.
So, i should just belah away from here.
Byeeeeeeeeee.

" Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace. "

Im feeling so down.
I dont know how many people has came tome to just let all their problems pour.
I dont' really mind to be their listening ear.
But most of those who came to me are all heartbroken.

Why is love hurting us so much ?
Why are we all still loving even though we knew deep inside that its gonna hurt soon ?
Why are we so stupid to not listen deep inside ?
Why would we risk it loving someone ?

I just dont understand the way life is created for us.
Time and time again, we've been tricked by the lies around us .
We've been hurt by people whom we thought would really love us.
And in the end, everthing turns topsy turvy.
And then only we realised that we've been wronged by our own soul.
And that is when the moment where tears start to trickle.
Thats the time our hugs began to grow.
And that is when we feel lonely.

After all these while ignoring those who had been there all the time waiting for you,
we suddenly remembered about them.
And that is when we could only remembered we have been neglecting them.

Elmo ; Dude, you've hurt her. I cant stand listening to her cries everythime she called. I dont want her to carry on like this. Please, for goodness sake, just dont go on like this. She had loved you all her heart and this is how you treated her ? Empty promises don't work anymore.

Danny ; All i could say is, live your life. Leave her alone. Im tired of seeing her suffering without you. Take care of Zawani. She's a nice girl. Dont hurt her like how you hurt Aini.


Im off people.
I got no more say.
Byeeee.