Oh god, I miss him.
Oh and yes, I am force to never took off that necklace.
But hell, i have been scratching the back of me neck ever since i wore it.
So obviously it is not stainless steel.
And yes, i am freaking allergic to those cheap metals.
Sorry syg.
But thanks to my cleverness, i trade the lace to my old necklace's lace which is stainless steal and exchange the locket.
Hee.
Love ya truckloads.
(:

Happy 2nd Monthsarry bby !
Thank you for the necklace !
I love you so.

Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
When I see your smile
Tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out

How this world turns cold
And breaks through my soul
And I know, I'll find deep inside me
I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

It's okay, it's okay, it's okay

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you, I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

'Cause you're my, you're my, my
My true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away

'Cause I'm here for you
Please don't walk away
And please tell me, you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know, I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever

P.S Any birthdays ? I wanna wish people !
LOL.

Im feeling like C R A P right now.
Go figure out yourself.
Yes.
Too much things happened today.
W A Y too much for me to handle in a day.

Had maths test for the first period.
How great ?
And it was a freaking 1 hour paper.
And i guess i was too slow in doing my work taht i didnt complete 2 questions and damn 2 BONUS question.
Okay, who cares about the bonus question but that 2 damn questions !
URGH.
After that we got back our Geog test we did last week.
Damn, i failed by 1 freaking mark.
God dammit ! I cant seem to pass my Geog.
I suck at it big time.
Then we had MT and i was thankful enough from all those shit as Cikgu wasn't in class and we had time to at least relax.
Harris and Wera are such jokers.
LOL.
My reccess was crap.
I dont want to talk about it.
After recess was Chem and I swear I could burst my head of with all those chemical formulas.
And then it was English.
I dont feel like explaining what happened during Chem and Eng class but I swear that I know our form teacher will be freaking amd at us again.
The last time she was mad at us, she threw everything on the teacher's table onto the floor.
And she is like those type of sweet caring teacher i knew.
Phew. No way im going through that again.
And at this point of time, I received a msg from Daniel that we got a freaking BRONZE for our SYF .
I know. I was the one who screwed up the whole fcuking awesome play.
Making it RETARDED in the eyes of professionals.
I am so never gonna touch that devil-ed lightboard again.
And during Chem, I actually was in a so-called fight with Bby.
Great right ?
Had physics test in the last period.
I did attempt a few questions.
But i know im so gonna flunk this test.
Almost everyone was like ignoring the test and pleading the teacher to postpone the test again.
LOL.
Had a maths remedial then.
Not really remedial but we are supposed to finish up all those overdued homework we owe her.
And i was like the last one to leave. In a good way though.
I know i could never complete my work if i had gone home to do it.
The rest went home after completing one or two work.
Good girl i could say.
*smiles widely*
Head home and i slacked.
Yeah.

I wish i could turm back time to rewind all those that happened.
I cant seem to get it into my freaking thick skull that we got a Bronze.
I guess i should ust go into a corner and stay there forever.
I could never face them again.
Its all my fault !

I dont feellike writing anymore.
Tears are already flowing down.
I guess im too stressed up.

Bye people.
Hate me all you want.

Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love.

If you were to be in my position.
Empathetic.
Is this how you live your life ?
Hurting people you love ?
I thought it was worth it giving you another chance.
I love you too much to say.
All my emotions go out of control.
Please.
I dont want to be the one crying in the corner losing you.
I dont want to be the one suffering the heart ache.
Those nine moths of torture was enough to make me go crazy.

I put my heart into this.
I put my soul into this.
There is nothing in this world i would ever ever trade for this.
You and me.

♥

Just what is wrong with you ?

God, please, show me the signs.
Im tired of this game.
Its too hrtful for me to handle.
I love him too much.
God, please, you are the only one who understands.
No one else do besides you.
I need him like a drug.

No one else ever understands,
NO ONE.
Not even my besties.
Only. me.

"Fcuk bitch.
Get a life.
Im gonna make you suffer.
Im not gonna be the one hurt.
To hell with you.
URGH."

byeeeeeeeee.

Hey ho and away we go.
LOLS,
Random much.
Oh, btw, HELLO EARTHLINGS.
Oh that reminds me of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.
I remember that in Sec 1 literature, wehad to do research on it and stuffs.
Yeah.

Back track to stories.

Friday.
Daniel gave me a letter on Thursday.
And i freakingly cried in the Study room.
Okay it was more to laughing than crying.
And its what i call both luagh and cry.
Weirdness.
Had nothing planned for Friday except Kenduri at Granddad’s place.
And as per normal, when it comes to kenduri, Daddy’s timing is always wrong.
We ended up reaching when everyone is like going off home already.
Daddy can never make it as a time planner.
LOLS.
Then we head off to Expo for I don’t know what.
And there was like a Book Fair going on and so as normal I dragged them and pester thme to get me a books.
Got a book titled ‘The Boy I once Loved “ for a freaking 5 Bucks !
Went to eat at Simpang Bedok Food centre there.
Ate Kampong Fried Rice.
And then head off home.
Kinda boring but I spend my day texting Jali all the way cause apparently Bby didn’t reply my msges.
):


Saturday.
Had Maulidur Rasul at Tampines Stadium.
Apparently, I was the earliest one of all.
We planned to meet at 1.30pm at out usual meeting place.
I thought I was late as I reached at 2.
But in the end I was the earliest.
When I reach the meeting place, may darling mates was only on their way out of their house.
Baik kan ?
Aku sayang korang. (:
Yadda yadda yadda.
We chatted and camwhored while waiting for the bus which ended up half and hour late.
Rabbani, Sharifah Aini and Elfie Ismail was there to perform and I saw Wanie there.



Amri and Hafizah's solo photo weren't be able to be taken as they were missing at that point of time. And Bapuchi( Sasa ) was all gila.

And after everything ends, we became more Gila.

And Bapuchi went Gila again but now, together with Loopy.


Bby send me home.
Seems like i was in cloud nine !
Gyeah !
I shall not elaborate.
My monents. Not yours.
Hee.

Sunday.

Had madrasah early in the morning.
And as per usual we were late.
We scribbled on small piece of paper.
Gosh. I go gila with them man.


Gyeah !
And then we head of for free tuition at two till lilke four.
And apparently. Sasa and me were late.
(:
After tuition, we haed of to Shasha's crib for i dont know what reason.
But we had fun btw.
Camwhored like Gila again.
*Shasha, Ain, Dewi and Rahmat ! My lovely homies.




Click here for more peektures !

Ended my day by sleeping all the way till morning.
Well not really. Woke up in the middle of the night to find food and i got othing in the end.
Besides Chocolate milk.
LOLS.

Today
Had boring lessons and chem test.
It ws freaking easy.
LOLS.
Hope to pass.
And had e-maths remedial.
Boring.
Headed home and i slept all the way till like maghrib in uniform.
Wtf.
Too tired i guess.
Tak sempat nak change pulak tu.
And here i am typng this.

Okay. If i write any longer i bet you wont read more.
And so, i shall not continue.
LOLS.
Okay. byee.

*P.S. i took nearly an hour to write this whole thing.
Great !

Tag replies ;

Hidayah Tall ;
Hey, You're linked already.
Invite me to your blog leh.
(:

Ain ;
You talk like you faham like that.
LOL.
Actually i also dont understand what you talking about.
Nyaaha !

Bby ;
Yeah, I'm smiling but you're making me go mad by all thats happening between us.
:(

Shasha Loopy ;
Seems like you read my blog a lot hehs ?
LOL.
Yeah im in the process of cheering up.
And I just hope we get a gold babe.
(:

"I miss the old you. "

All i wish to do now is throw myself on my bed and sleep till tomorrow.
I feel so legarthic.
And people around me are making me irritated.
Had Speech Day today.
And god, how boring can it be ?
I bet i could catch some zzz while they were having prixe presentation.
And and my back and upper arms are aching still because of P.E. torture on Mon.

Okay, maybe i shall just stop here cause i have no mood to do anything besides zzzz.
I seems to notice that i tend to get angry or have no mood easily nowadays.
Well, who cares.
LOL.


1...2...3... *snaps* ZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

I just feel like throwing myself to that special corner of mine and just cry my heart out.
I dont have the mood to laugh or either smile.

To my darling Dramalites,

I am sorry for waht happen earlier today.
I know its my fault.
Our only hope for now is how Dr Fang play with words.
You may blame me for all if we got a bronze or anything.
Im the one who screws it all up.
Im really sorry.
After all that pressure put on me by all of you had made me a better person deep inside.
It made me opened up from that shy girl to someone I wouldnt believe I can ever be.
Thanks a lot Dramalites.
I appreciated it.
To all those darlings , Daniel, Faz, Shaheen, Firah, Alyaa. Tisha and much more, who was there to comfort me when I'm down,
I love you guys.
And remember, todays production was dedicated to Melduen with all our hearts.
I love you guys.

Happy Birthday to TEESHA !
Happy Belated birthday to Firah , Sasa Esparella and Danial !

So, seems like everyone getting older except me.
Shasha , Ain and Sasa are all fifteen already.
Hee. Im youngest of them all.
LOL.

Going craaaazzzyyyy~!

Okay, i am so fcuking bored.
That i have nothing to say at all.
LOL.

Flying away...

Im missing dozens of people !


First up is Chubs.
Then comes my besties.
Which are Sasa, Shasha and Ain.
Next up will be my syg. Aini !
And most importantly...

Bby !


He is the one i missed the most.
God ! Help.





Okay. Drama tmr.
And yesh, we got our drama shirt.
Wooh ~!
I love it man.
Woooh ~!

SYF in like 4 days.
Better be prepared.
Band had gone for SYF and they got bronze.
Be proud of it people !

Okay im off.
No mood liao.
(:

All I feel right now is like writing a freaking short one
and start on my a-maths homework.

God, out of the sudden, i feel so so stressed up.
Life getting on worser.
I can't get a grip on it.

Grades have been dropping.
I cant understand a freaking thing about a-maths.
Someone tutor me !

And cultural club have practice every single day.
How bad can that be ?
And i have to attend even when im not involved ?
Wtf ?!

And lastly...
Drama SYF is in like 5 freaking days.
OMG OMG OMG OMG !

Okay i seriously should start on my hoeworks now.


P.S. Baby ! Talk to me. I miss you freaking truckloads.