Hero

Hero -Sterling Knight
Yeah, Yeah
Im no superman
I cant take your hand
And fly you anywhere you wanna go, yeah

I cant read your mind
Like a bell boy sign
And tell you everything you wanna hear
But Ill be your hero

Cause I, I can be everything you need
If youre the one for me
Like gravity Ill be unstoppable
I, yeah I believe in destiny
I may be an ordinary guy without his soul
But if youre the one for me
Then Ill be your hero, oh
Ill be your hero, yeah
Ill be your hero

So incredible
Some kind of miracle
That when its meant to be
Ill become a hero-o
So Ill wait, wait, wait, wait for you
Yeah, Ill be your hero, yeah

Cause I, I can be everything you need
If youre the one for me
Like gravity Ill be unstoppable
I, yeah I believe in destiny
I may be an ordinary guy without his soul
But if youre the one for me
Then Ill be your hero, yeah
Yeah, Ill be your hero, yeah
Ill be your hero
Hero

♥

I dont know why but you always make me smile ! :DDDDDDD

I love you, lil bro. ♥♥♥♥

one more chance ?

Heya lovelies!



Weekend was a total boredom .

Stayed at home the whole time.

Went Sentosa with Deyi peepos on Monday .

Awesome fun. They made me feel appreciated and welcome.

Unlike hanging out with my own schoolmates.

Now, i kinda wished i had been in Deyi.

Hehee. ^^

But at times, when i reminisce those memories i had with the clan, sadness overcomes.

We used to be so close and now were like totally drifted.



Anw, being around these peeps made me realise that no matter how long you have known a person there's nothing that can stop you from being close friends. :D

Yesterday,

Went town-ing with Aini, Richo and Swee Siang.

Firstly, wanted to have lunch at an Indonesian rest. Too ex and so we headed to KFC at Far East Plaza.

Then, headed to Bras Basah Complex. SS wanted to look for a guitar bag. And i wanted to look for drumsticks. Saw a cool bright pink drumsticks for 14 bucks. Awesome or what ? ^^

Next, headed to Bugis to play some pool. First time for me, Aini and SS. But it turns out awesome! Great time playing. :D

Later, we went for a movie at 6.30 .

We watched The A-Team. Awesome combat movie. THought i would fall asleep. But i was wrong. The movie was about this group of 4 mens that was being betrayed and had to seve a jail term of 10 years. They iligally escaped to rebuild their name. They were betrayed again but now, their names are rebuild.

Ended up reaching home at 9.30. -.-

2 hous passed my curfew. But heck care! :D

Im off now. Gotta flip those textbook pages.

toodles.

xoxo.

I don't know how long can i keep this anymore.

It seems like i have been keeping everything to myself and now, i could just explode anytime cause the bottle is filled to the brim .

Its been like a million years since i've been waiting.

But you seem blind.

Maybe i don't stand out enough .

People may think that i may just be your best girl friend.

But they don't know how deeply hurt i am whenever they say that .

I never told anyone about what i feel.

Maybe, i was thinking that i could escape myself into a world of my own .

I was wrong.

I keep seeing you with diff girls. But i somehow feel that you never loved them whole-heartedly.

And when i found out you have a new girlfriend, my heart just explode into a million pieces.

And when i got to know that you liked my bestfriend, i ignored that jealousy feeling .

It always crushed me whenever i read my your text sent to my own bestfriend's with all those kisses.

It always crushed me when everytime i tried to get my own time alone with you, there's always someone stealing you away from me.

I didn't realize that by keeping all this for 10 months, it would hurt me this much.

I never told anyone , cause everyone keeps thinking that i could never fall for you.

They are wrong.

I never told them because im scared that they would think im such a loser for loving you.

I didnt care.

I ignored.

I love you.

Thats all i wanna say.

xoxo.

♥

risk or withdraw ?

Heyy,

Super f-ed up day today .

Oh wait, seems like everyday .

Went jogging in the morning after a while since my ankle recovered.

Jogged to khatib from my block, then tracked along the mrt to Yishun, and then to chong pang and back to my block.

Quite a distant. And my ankle hurts a bit. :(

Went to meet Shasha after that. She and Tadza went off for some private counselling session and i was accompanied by Achap.

Learned a lot of things from him.

And he called me a minah! Damn him. Punched him to get revenge but ended up getting myself hurt when i hit his bone. :S

Bought Ice cream from the new shop at AMKHub basement. Sedaaaaap oii~

Choc banana with M&M's . But it kinda cost a bomb. $3.70 for a single scoop? Daylight roberry siaaa.

Slacked at Tadza's porch and later sent him off for soccer training .

Me, Shaa and achap went off to meet William .

Turned out he was with 2 other friends. Not alone. Damn him.

Ate at Banquet.

Shaa and Achap went off to meet Achap's mom.

I went off with them to 155.

Waited for his friend for almost an hour.

Down to MRT, and home sweet home.

It didnt seem liked an f-ed up day but yeah, i wouldnt wanna elaborate what happened in the middle.

I dont wanna upset anyone.

Now HID, ask yourself this question?

To risk it or withdraw ?

xoxo.

Toodles.

Life really is getting on my nerves right now.

And I don't wish to talk about it.

Prelim Oral Tmr.

O Lvl FNN Prac on Friday .

BAchinzxzxz betul.

:(

Whoaaa ...

Been a long time since i've been here.

Oh well.

Lotsa things happen lately.

Prelims 1 went badly.

I dont wish to even talk about it.

But all i have to do now is really pull up my socks.

NO ITE for me, i swear!

ONS3 was a complete success beside me suffering from a sprained ankle now.

Simply said, AWESOME .

'Holidays' are here.

And yeah, it doesn't even feel like so !

I'll have to flip those pages of my boring textbook and pretend its interesting. -.-

I gotta go now.

Toodles.

xoxo.

Heya Lovelies.

Well, yes, I'm sorry for updating lesser and lesser by the moment.

I simply spend less time here. Hehe .

Yes. Prelims is like sprinting towards me. Its like 3 more steps to the finishing line.

Oh no.

I have really put in a lot of effort into this.

I don't wanna fail again.

I just cant wait to get it over and done with.

Its really one of the things i really hate.

God.

I don't wanna go through that op. Its too scary for people to cut me up.

But i cant avoid it. If i wanna carry on this lifestyle, i will have to go through it.

But i cant change anything. He's too arrogant to even care about my health.

He wants to pay for such an expensive one is it? Know what? Im just gonna go with the flow. But one thing for sure is that I HAVE TO BE STRONG. :'(

I guess im off.

Seriously tired and in need of sleep.

toodles.

xoxo

Heya lovelies !

Well, yeah, as you can see i have not been updating my blog recently.

Mostly due to stupid computer making problems, too much homework or simply pure laziness.

Hee !

Well, lotsa things has happen lately.

Some are awesomely fun and some are just pain in the ass.

Yeah, it feels as if there are like a thousand needles on a chair poking on your butt when you sit down on that particular chair.

Gosh.

But yeah, it has been awesome.

simply said.

:D

I'll update when i feel like it.

Or when someone forces me to do it.

But this blog will probably be taking a nap.

MYE is running towards me already!

NOOOOOO !

Okay, it really feels retarded.

I feel like im talking to a computer.

Oh whatever.

HAHA.

Toodles.

xoxo.

:D

be there for me.

Im sorry for thinking that you have ignored us.

Im sorry again for thinking you never bothered about us anymore.

Im sorry for thinking you never thought about us anymore.

I guess im wrong.

I know that this year has changed.

We've all become busy ourself.

We all have school to attend, family stuffs to settle and boyfriends to tackle.

But i never have forgotten you.

I kept thinking at certain moments, wondering what could you been doing right now.

I regarded you as my own sister.

To help me guide through this crazy teenage world.

Its all because i dont have an amazing mum who understands teenage world.

I dont have a dad who even bothers to talk to me nicely.

I dont have anyone else besides my friends to guide me through.

I dont have anyone else who is able to tell me their experience.

I depended on you to be the one.

Can we just start all over again?

I love you, Kak.

I need you there too.

xoxo

Heyy all .

Well, its been hell of an idiotic week.

I found my march 2010 resolution somewhere in a load of papers in my room.

And I was surprise on what i put as No. 2 & 3.

HAHA . Ask me yourself if curious. :D

Oh ya, my March holidays doesnt seem like holidays at all.

I still have classes from like 8am to 3pm on Mon to Wed .

And the Johor trip is compulsary ?!

Damn.

That leaves me with Friday. :(

Despite that, crap has been going on at school.

Yeah, apparently i hate the way you're acting.

Seriously. Like i give a damn when is your big day!

Dude, you even PRETEND to ignore my birthday last year, well, i can do the same damn thing.

Im not really making a big deal out of this but seriously, what goes around comes around.

And yeah, i don't bother giving present to you this time cause i know you wont even appreciate.

Im off now.

This girl has to sleeeeeeeeeep .

xoxo .

When the world turns upside down.

Why do i feel like destroying you right now ?

Ask yourself why !

Grrrrrrrrrrrr ...

Whatever he told me, im really hoping that its not true .

But search yourself, what had you got for doing that ?

Fun ? Laughter ? Peace ?

And whatever it is, I do not care already.

And im putting the past behind us .

Because by doing so, it will help me in becoming a better person .

I want a change.

xoxo.

Happy Birthday Ain !

You're always the one who makes me smile .

You are the one who comforts me .

And im hoping that we will be the best of friends for the longest time ever .

I dont wanna lose you okay ?

I love ya .

HAHA . Happy birthday girl .

Enjoy the cake i bought you .

May you succeed in your future endeavors .

Happy Birthday Amri !

Brother bear ku !

May your wishes come true .

And may you always be there to cheer me up .

Sayang Am . :D

xoxo .

Bad week .

Bad week.

Bad week.

Everything seems to be going wrong .

It all seems bleak .

And all thats going through my mind the whole time was "When is this gonna end?"

But the main reason was probably you.

It feels as if im hoping on thin ice.

Its never gonna happen again .

And dreams are just a play of the mind.

I cant be hoping too much.

Its making me feel worse.

Oh whatever .

(muka tak leh angs . LOL )

Btw .

Happy belated Birthday Daddy .

I love you .

xoxo.

I miss you but i don't wanna show it .

Cant you see the obvious already ?

You ?

Me ?

Its all about us .

And why cant you just jump outta your shell like i did ?

I always wait for your text . Cause it actually means that you're thinking about me .

I always love the way you call me 'Hiddy' .

Cause its your nick for me .

No one else ?

And when can i get to meet you ? :D

Say it to me, love .

♥

happy v'day ! ♥

You. You. You, M . :D

life on the moon...

Hey all !

Happy CNY !

Okay, im just being a bit random .

But not too much right ?

Those past entries has been oh-so-emotional .

So, i'm gonna break it .

And its the holiday season baybeh !

Yeah, and its time for me to GAIN weight .

Muahhahaha .

Oh wait. Isn't that what i planned for Hari Raya ?

Opps ... Wrong celebration .

And i hate oranges .

They too orange-y and has so much skin . -.-

And yes , I went to Body World again with the school .

Me, Aly, Harris, Wera and Richo ended up spending more time at Science Center than Body World .

Its cool though, all those naked bodies without skin .

And I love the Girrafe ! Reminds me of what the madrasah boys used to call AIN .

HAHA . And now, they are the girrafe !

:P

And the Gang, which includes Nabil, Wera, Harris, Mars, Erra, Aini, Jun Wei and me, planned to go Sentosa this sunday . And some missing .... ):

Im so looking forward to it .

Its like on of those proper outings we get to go once a while .

Not forgetting one of the first , SENTOSA .

So, SENTOSA, here we come ! :D

Aly getting stressed up over some phone call from an idiot which is pre-recorded . -.-

xoxo .

Toodles .

All out

"I chose to love you in silence because in silence, i find no rejection.
And in silence no one owns you but me . "

Heyy all.
Currently at masjid.
And its 3 am .
HAHHA .
And im not sleeping .

There's a million and one things on my mind .
And i just wanna lash it out here .
Hope you dont mind .

" I dont know why but you seem to appear everywhere in my mind. No matter what i do, it all reminds me of you. And it seems like you started talking to me again . But that will never progress anywhere cause i know you're hearts with her . It seems so easy for you to move on. But what about me ? Im still struggling at the edge of the cliff, not able to stand up again .
What is it thats so easy for you to go on ? But so difficult that made me sruggling for so long ? I dont get it. However well you are coping with your life, always remember that I'll still be there for you no matter what .
And yes, those tears i cries are still worth it. Because its you, not anyone else . Believe me . "


Well, thats not really all .


"Heyy M, If youre reading this, i hope you understand what im going thru . Its a mixture of everything . But please, dont give up on me . I dont wanna lose you . Although im still holding on to him, its you who always make me feel better. Its you making me smile everytime tears are almot eolling down my cheeks . Thank you being there and dont ever go . "

Yeah, all out i guess.
Im getting hungry and sleepy .

See ya peeps when i see you .
Nights all .

xoxo .

Well, its been two months since you're gone.

Not that I'm not over the fact that i cant have you back.

But i realized that your death brings a meaning to all of us.

If not for you cheerfulness when you were alive, our laughs would exist.

And our memories wouldn't exist too.

I could still remember the tears that roll down my cheeks.

But that shouldnt be the way.

I should be remembering the laughs we had and the happy moments.

And from now on, i will .

I promise to be the best i can.

With Love,

Hidayah .

I miss you, ayah cam .